Thank you Oprah for allowing us to recognize the "AHA" moments in our lives.
As I worked frantically over the weekend to pack for a return trip to Tennessee, reclaim the home so the Realtors could show it when I wasn’t in Georgia, feed pets and husband, and work on final items for the Nashville Christmas Show, I truly felt like I was spinning my wheels. The past year I have been diagnosed with cancer, two surgeries, and radiation treatment plus meds I am on every day. We also purchased and redid the home in Georgia that we are now looking to sell due to job changes for my husband. I have the opportunity to be in Tennessee for less than a week, during which time, I need to schedule a trip to Knoxville to have the current car serviced, two hours each way, and then a trip to Cookeville to pick up the new vehicle. I also have several people we have invited for Thanksgiving in a few weeks. There may be overnight lodging involved in this event. Did I mention, we redid the home in Tennessee also this year, and it’s not completely company ready? At 9 a.m. it occurred to me that perhaps this was all just an exercise in insanity, and I needed to stop the bus or just get off the bus. When I talked to the lady doing the show and she had such a short window for me to drop off items for the show and it would be a Nashville drop off when I would be in Georgia, I just realized that this is totally impossible and just completely nuts! The world is not going to stop because I don’t have twenty items at the Nashville Christmas Show this year. We, thank God, are not going to go hungry if I don't sell one thing. Hopefully, there will be plenty of other holidays in my future and my loved ones. Why should I make another weekend, day or hour such a forced march? I looked around and there was nobody with a gun to my head. Everything I was feeling was another way for the perfectionist in me, the performer, the creator, to beat me up with. I feel that I have been on a journey to work minimalism into my life, and where was I failing? You have to get it straight in your head first.
People don’t really need more things, even my lovely (LOL) items, and if they do, why can’t I sell this on my website, etsy, or in one of the several daily retail locations I have access to? I was still able to provide forty handmade ornaments for Catherine, along with my studio information for inclusion in her boutique bags. I also worked on an ornament for the Tennessee Governor's Holiday Christmas Tree for our county. Maybe for this year, this will be enough. This reality has given me such a feeling of peace, I can’t explain it. I know I will still finish my items and market them thru different channels. I know we will still open our home and our hearts on Thanksgiving to our friends and family. I know that this time next week I will be driving a new car back to Georgia, and you know what? I know that tomorrow if it is God's plan, I will wake up healthy and full of optimism and hope. And you know what? It’s enough..